Eien

I wish I could stop time, just to type in letters for the people who touched have my life so well enough to thank.

To Kim Lachica

Why, hello there - you've known me for a while now. You know how much I've wanted to not grow up, not to change, tried to change, improve myself through the years, and suddenly creak into a steady halt, then rock a few seconds, and finally slip into depressing silence.

I've known you for a while now. You know that I've told you almost everything you need to know about who or what I am - I confide in you my secrets, my amusing conversations with other people, and thousands of dreams, from simple to extravagant. You know that I try to take into consideration almost everything before speaking out, unlike one tactless kid from before.

I have grown much from a child to an individual, and much of it is actually most thanks to you. How unfortunate some lessons like

someone we know who made a fool of me for two years

&

a sudden collapse in unspeakable things

were needed for me to change. I asked you once: How am I supposed to give a gift? For a few hours that day, I contemplated, and thought of trying to become a gentleman for that person. Why - I've actually started a plant out of the soil my mother cultivated.

Thankfully, you watered my stunted plant. How I wish someone - or something, would water the seedling once again for all these efforts of you, my friends, not to be put to waste as I branch into the endless sky, calling for the Lord.


110121: In retrospect, all this has become void after four years. Not only was I working with a delusion, but I wasn't honest with myself at all refusing to admit the truth that I was then stumped. Those days were filled with pretense.

Migraine

Before I got into REM sleep, I woke myself up, took my migraine medicine, a mug of tea, and an apple.

What I was doing last night - I was desperately trying not to sleep. And now that I've finally fixed my body clock, disaster comes.

Looks like I'll have to sit down on my PC and get up when it's dusk.

If a very concerned teacher would ask me; what did you do this summer, I'd probably say 'video games', because that's just about two or so percent of what I did the most of this summertime.

And if you will ask why I'd say that, I'd probably tell you that I am still fixing my body clock, trying to get the fumes that are stuck in my sinuses, rid myself completely of chocolate, went on a tea diet, typed out some words, did some work, tried a summer course (and failed miserably), milked some cash and fattened myself.

I guess that would be the end of the 'what you did this summer' homework, since I just finished it.

Regarding the not-so-decent character make-ups I was getting for some people who were asking, they're not up yet. Those won't be up until about next week, or the next, because I'm sure about myself being lazy.

Today, as I close this window - Jorel says: You call Antipolo a mountain?